Household And Mates Bear in mind Arlana Miller

Family And Friends Remember Arlana Miller

On the morning of July 8, Janice Tappin-Miller is heat, however the undercurrent of grief is powerful. As she welcomes me into her dwelling in Waxahachie, Texas, I go the eating room. It’s crammed with images of Arlana Miller, Janice’s late daughter. “I actually miss my child,” Janice tells ESSENCE. “That was my child.”

Arlana, who died by suicide this previous spring, started her first yr at Baton Rouge’s Southern College and A&M within the fall of 2021. She was a talented cheerleader majoring in Agriculture, Household and Shopper Sciences. Southern awarded her the David Scott/JAG STARS scholarship—a full trip. She selected the key as a result of she was trying to turn out to be a psychiatrist and wished to assist others. 

“She by no means made you are feeling alone,” says Mya Mingo, considered one of Arlana’s cheer mates at Southern. “After apply, everybody can be gone; me and her would nonetheless be within the parking zone, speaking and speaking. She knew encourage, simply carry folks’s spirits up.” 

On Could 4, days earlier than her summer season break started, the 19-year-old posted a since-removed suicide be aware to Instagram. She detailed her ongoing battle with psychological well being and the influence contracting COVID-19 and tearing her anterior cruciate ligament had on her. “As soon as she obtained the damage, it felt like issues took a flip,” says Floyd Sias, Southern College’s head cheerleading coach. “I feel she felt like she didn’t have a spot anymore as a result of she was harm and she or he couldn’t check out [for the next year]. However we had a dialog. I had assured her that she was high quality, that she had a spot on the workforce. I may inform that was actually getting her down.”

Arlana additionally voiced concern about her grades, in her public letter and through a dialog along with her mom on the day of her passing. She texted her mother that she was failing a math class, which prompted a telephone name from Janice. ”I stated, ‘It’s okay, child. Simply drop the category.’” 

Arlana then revealed she was taking six courses, two greater than she had through the first half of the yr. It was too late within the semester to let go of any. 

“She obtained quiet on the telephone,” Janice says about their ultimate name. “I consider she had a second the place she simply thought she was going to fail us, however she may by no means fail me.”

Family And Friends Remember Arlana Miller
Arlana Miller and her mom, Janice Tappin-Miller.

“She was an amazing individual. I really feel just like the world wants extra folks like Arlana.” 


Arlana Janell Miller was born in 2002 to Janice, an educator, and Pastor Arthur Miller II. She started dancing at age three when her mom enrolled her in dance courses. By the primary grade, Arlana was cheering, too. She was a straight A-student, shy but bubbly while you obtained to know her and regularly acquired awards on the finish of every educational yr.

The household, which incorporates Arlana’s older brother, Raylon, relocated to Texas when Janice took a instructing place in 2016. (The relocation didn’t have Arthur, because the couple divorced in 2010.) Arlana was the brand new lady at A.W. Brown Management Academy, a Okay-8 college in Dallas. She made the cheerleading workforce and match proper in. 

“She went to A.W. Brown and didn’t hardly know anyone. Then she made cheer there, ran for homecoming courtroom and was first-runner up,” Janice says. 

Cheerleading was the teenager’s pleasure. She ran monitor as effectively and was proficient, however in center college determined to cease splitting her time between a number of bodily undertakings. At the beginning of her senior yr at DeSoto Excessive College, she was rewarded for specializing in one sport. 

“I at all times hinted at her like, ‘Lady, I feel you’re going to be cheer captain,’” says Whitney Walton, considered one of Arlana’s closest associates. Walton’s intestine feeling proved to be proper. Throughout one of many 2019 dwelling video games, the workforce took a break; moments later, the cheer coach got here out with a sash for Arlana that learn ‘cheer captain.’ Janice smiles as she retells the story, recalling her daughter’s tears, gratitude and shock. “They filmed it and all the pieces, and she or he was crying. I used to be crying.” It was a dream come true. 

Now, Janice has a brand new outlook on her daughter’s relationship with the game, saying it helped her cope. “It was her option to not be by herself, to be doing one thing and never in her dorm room. I discovered by my grief counselor, people who find themselves generally depressed, they cope with their melancholy by serving to different folks or doing issues for different folks.”

The appointment as captain got here just a few months after an occasion that rocked Arlana—the demise of her maternal grandfather, John Tappin Sr. The 2 had been inseparable throughout his life. “Her Pawpaw was like her dad. That was her all the pieces,” Janice says. Arlana would spend time in Louisiana with him, alongside along with her cousins, driving four-wheelers and horses. John Tappin III, Arlana’s first cousin and the son of Janice’s twin brother, reminisced on the connection between Arlana and her grandfather. “They had been a match made in heaven, actually,” he says. “If they might maintain palms day by day, they’d.”

After her daughter’s demise, Janice additionally contemplated how Arlana could have felt after her grandfather’s passing. 

“I ponder, did she ever actually grieve her Pawpaw dying?” 


The COVID-19 pandemic, which started in the direction of the tip of Arlana’s junior yr of highschool, profoundly impacted younger folks’s psychological well being. The isolation, and witnessing mass illness and demise, was rather a lot to bear. In 2022, the Heart for Illness Management and Prevention (CDC) reported greater than 25% of teenagers battle with psychological well being. In 2020, the American Basis for Suicide Prevention (leaning on CDC knowledge) additionally shared that in Louisiana, suicide is the third-leading reason behind demise for these between the ages of 10 and 24. 

Black ladies and ladies nonetheless don’t really feel comfy totally opening up about their trials, despite the fact that they’ve been feeling the burden of the previous 2.5 years—and past. 

“Intergenerational transmission of trauma and ideologies is prevalent amongst African-American households and contributes to cultural norms throughout the diaspora,” Xonjenese Jacobs, Affiliate Director of Program Efficiency for Tempo Heart for Women, an advocacy program, writes ESSENCE in an e-mail. “For Black ladies, there’s an added layer to incorporate the requirements by which they’re anticipated to behave and the way they’re perceived in society. Every of those interpersonal stage interactions have an affect on the expertise of Black ladies and their psychological well being outcomes.” 

Jacobs additionally writes that ladies make up a big proportion of the psychological health-related emergency room visits which have taken place because the pandemic began. 


“She walked within the Mississippi River,” Janice painfully explains. Captain Keith Kibby, the Baton Rouge sheriff who discovered Arlana’s physique, instructed her mom that if that they had arrived two or three minutes earlier, they may have been in a position to save her. 

“All I bear in mind is simply screaming and hollering till I simply couldn’t breathe anymore. I felt like any individual took the air out of my chest,” she says of the evening of Arlana’s demise. She fell asleep in her daughter’s room, aching to carry her as soon as extra. 

Tears roll down Janice’s face as she provides me the small print of a earlier grief counseling session. She instructed the therapist, “I’ll by no means get to see her graduate from school. I’ll by no means get to see her get married. I’ll by no means get to see her have any youngsters.” 

I cry, too. 


“I need folks to know she was the perfect individual ever,” says Denim Hill, considered one of Arlana’s childhood associates and fellow Southern Jaguar. “I ain’t by no means had that kind of bond.” 

A cheer mate, Jada Taylor, shares an analogous thought. 

“She was an amazing individual. I really feel just like the world wants extra folks like Arlana.” 

Since Arlana’s passing, Southern has launched the Arlana J. Miller Memorial Scholarship Fund, a financial award that may profit two cheerleaders. It’s in keeping with Arlana’s compassion: in 2020 she started her personal scholarship that top college seniors can be eligible for. Janice is now sustaining it in her daughter’s stead, telling ESSENCE this yr’s bursary will go in the direction of a Louisiana State College freshman. 

A non-profit group, the Arlana Janell Miller ‘Test on Your Sturdy Mates’ Basis, can be within the works. “We simply wish to assist anybody we are able to. We’re simply instructing methods with coping with anxiousness, melancholy, stress, Janice says. “I didn’t understand so many individuals had been going by melancholy.”

The group has been there within the wake of the tragedy. For weeks after Arlana’s passing, neighbors cooked and despatched flowers to the household. One other had custom-made ‘Mother’ cookies made for Janice. Arlana died the Wednesday earlier than Mom’s Day. 

In the direction of the tip of the afternoon, Janice walks me to Arlana’s pristine bed room. On the wall, there are images of the younger girl. I additionally see a blanket with a portrait of her on it. Her mom hasn’t totally sorted by her belongings but. 

“Generally I don’t are available right here and generally I do. I simply want she was in right here,” she says. 

In the event you or somebody you understand is in disaster, please name 988 to succeed in the Suicide and Disaster Lifeline. You too can name the Nationwide Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255, textual content HOME to 741741 or go to for added sources.



Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *